Ok Granny...

Who I have this horrible feelings is very closely related to the same Granny that answered the phone when she was 15 as "Granny" only to find out that it was her prom date calling! Talk about... HUMILIATING.

Anyway that happened way way back in the 80's and I have gotten over it (read: not really and that I still have nightmares about it) but speaking of the 80's I was transported right back to 1984 this weekend when I took Sis to the movies with 3 of her friends for her 14th birthday. They had to pick a movie age appropriate because my mother was in charge of the other girls and well their parents would get upset with her. We have very different ideas of appropriate but the girls did good and picked the movie Step Up 2. Now this was a good movie with a GREAT underlying story that is if you quit drooling over the hot guys and their delicious dancer bodies long enough to realize there was a story (read: I only noticed the story part on the way home). Anyway where I was transported was the moment the movie started. I saw their clothes.. I heard their music.. I heard the names of their crews.. I was TOLD what they were doing is called Street Dancing but I kept shaking my head muttering to myself .. no.. no.. no... no.

These hot bodies were not STREET dancing.. they were full force BREAK dancing.. what I found even funnier is that my daughter and her adorable little friends think ALL of those moves are new. HA. After the movie I wanted to go rent the movie Breakin' and turn it on mute so they would not laugh at the music and go.. SEE!!! It wasn't YOU .. it was US!!! The kids of the 80's!!! NOT YOU LITTLE PUNK ASSES, but again my mother would not have approved. So what I did instead was while the girls were in the parking lot showing each other the Pop n Lock.. (read: really screwing up the Pop n Lock) I speak up and say.. Umm girls you are doing that wrong.

What did I get for my effort. Strange blank stare by 4 girls.. followed by eye rolls by 4 girls.. followed by my daughter saying to them.. Like she would know!

What they don't know.. is that myself, my brother and my favorite cousin were all very much into it and were quite good and it doesn't matter that I am twice those little punk ass girls age.. I CAN STILL POP N LOCK BETTER THAN THEY EVER DREAMED THEY COULD.

SMOOCH.

Beans Don't burn on the grill....

Moving on up!! To the top.. to a deluxe apartment in the skyyy....


Ok Ok so the words may be a little askew there and maybe just a little backwards but you get the point. And it isn't a deluxe apartment.. and the truth is fish DO fry in our kitchen.. what does fish frying have to do with coming into money and moving up anyway???

Oh... we didn't come into money. Not like the Jefferson's anyway.

We are moving this week... not very far, across the yard to be exact. One would think that wouldn't be so bad.. WRONG. The truth is .. it was EASIER to move from NC to VA than 100 yards or so away!


I have ONE room done.. 4 1/2 more to go.. I say 1/2 cause I am not counting the bathroom as a whole room. My son's bedroom looks so nice. That would be the one that is complete.

What makes me sad.. I am going to have to downgrade my books.. AGAIN. I am losing at LEAST one large book shelf. I think the paper backs are biting it this time. Simply because I can put them in a box and store them in our shed and I will at least KNOW where they are.. Have you ever seen anyone soooo attached to their BOOKS? Those books got me through many many lonely days, they became my "friends". How pathetic is that??? Now I have a loving husband and two wonderful sons and an amazing daughter to fill my days, but I STILL can't let them go.

Oh that isn't a RANDOM baby.. that is Tyler my BFF's new baby.. I say new cause he is only a few months old and he is still really NEW to me. And NOTHING is wrong with his arm.

smooch

This one is for the girls...

Piczo Lips

Do I even have to say the word???

I am still in Maryland.. will be going home late tomorrow evening but I thought I would say hi and give you a smooch and .. well how about a baby picture to make a very short post all that more exciting.

What I should be doing..

What I should be doing is taking a shower and getting dressed.
What I am doing is laying on the bed in my pjs watching a Tru Calling marathon.

What I should be doing is packing my clothes for my three day trip to Maryland.
What I am doing is washing clothes because I did not bother to do it yesterday.

What I should be doing is going to my grandfathers to rummage through a few things I have left thing sorting what goes where.
What I am doing is waiting until next weekend when I can make my daughter go with me so I don't have to go alone.

What I should be doing is logging on to blogger every day and giving you an update.
What I am doing is hiding in my own little world cause I just don't feel like dealing.

What I should be doing is hopping right back on the diet wagon cause I was doing so well.
What I am doing is eating myself crazy.

I am alive.. I am well.. well kinda sorta.. oh and because I haven't showered yet.. I stink ..

SMOOCH.

Merry Christmas to my friends...

Please do not forget me.
I was going to do a long catch you all up post today as a Christmas gift to you all.
But that is the last thing on my mind right now.

We are all dealing with family tragedy right now,

My mother in law passed suddenly.

I wanted to give you all a smooch and I will be back soon.

Before I get bit

I thought I would say HI!

How is everyone? Things are good here.

I am counting the days down until Christmas. I am hoping Santa brings me the camera I have been whining eeerrr hhmmm I mean polietely asking for. yes it is a little more than your average every day old camera.. but this is ME. I am not average.

I know I have been away again for some time.. to be honest I am busy all the time! There is never not a load of clothes, or not something to dust, or not something to wash.. of all people for me to channel I channel the one that would have a heart attack if something was out of place for someone to see. (our family are closet crammers if it is in the closet and no one can see it . oh well)

Well I thought I would leave you with this cute little picture of me when I was little. With my little brother with the girly curls. Oh I am so sweet and innocent and adorable in this little dress with a bow in my hair.. I was such a girly girl.. never ever did I get dirty or play in the mud or beat up boys.. not me I was in the kitchen baking cookies.. Oh shit forget it.. just look at my knees if you want to know what kind of kid I really was.. and I still remember the beating I took to get me in that dress and the one that was threatened if I didn't smile like a girl in the picture..



Now THIS is more what I looked like :)

OW DAMNIT STOP OW OUCH NOT THERE...

uumm I am not sure who did this. oh wait I see.. Kim-D NO smoochies for you.

I know you guys miss me but I have really been busy! Seriously I know that is no excuse but I have been doing so much! I have made a movie for my mother and her siblings using photos from their pre birth and childhood on up to their children. Do you know how long that has taken???

On top of that I have maintained an A in my class. Do you know how hard that is????

Also the kid Punk Child is giving me a FIT. I have been having to hold his hand with each and every step this year. I really need to do more for him but I don't know where to begin.

I have been raising a 3 month old puppy who LOVES my slippers. The bad part is she only LOVES them on my feet. Do you know how badly 3 month old puppy teeth hurt on the top of the foot. She wants to know if you guys know how badly the top of mommies foot in the ass hurts?

Other than all of that I am great wonderful seriously. This is my very very favorite time of the year. I have my baby Charlie Brown tree up.. the house smells like Christmas which I adore.

I see that some one learned how to put up pictures which is GREAT.. I love seeing her face.. that beautiful face. I also understand that the wine glasses I stole .... errr hmmm borrowed on that house visit might need to be returned. And someone else adores their SH and DD. That picture is great by the way.. to be cherished I am sure.

As for my Dear Sister.. she hasn't updated her blog either so I have no clue if she is living.

I am going to leave you with two pictures these are pictures that not everyone in my generation has... pictures that I will hold on to dearly to pass down to my childrens children.

Both of these pictures are of two of my GREAT GREAT Grandmothers! I will tell you how under the pictures!

Miss you all.. smooches to everyone except the woman who made the dog bite my boob!


This is my mothers, mothers, mothers, mother! How cool is that???



And this pretty lady is my mothers, mothers, fathers, mother... I am so into this.. it is just awesome!

Ok fine.. smooch Kim-d

I had my ankles bit..

Thanks to one of you! I am not sure what was going on but Binky Too came running up to me bit my ankle and drug me to the lap top, then I noticed that some one HAD her drag me here!

Ok we are doing good. I have just be very very busy! Work has been chaotic and on top of that my lap top (work) fried so I was without for almost a week.

I have painted my bedroom and purchased the most glorious new bed, the husband isn't liking it all that much. Says he was used to the lumps and bumps and spring sticking out of the old one. That is what did it for me when the spring sprung I felt like I was living in a cartoon! So I found a WONDERFUL buy this weekend saved myself a grand! So because I save the grand I spent a quarter of it on 100% Egyptian cotton sheets and 4 new king size pillows that are fluffy little bits of heaven!

Binky Too is doing wonderful.. other than she is not potty training as well as I had hoped. I have yet to figure this all out.

Anyway big smoochies to all of you.. even the one who had my ankles chomped!

SWEETNESS

Just looking at this makes up for the lack of sleep!!!




Not to mention that so far no accidents today.. it has a lot to do with the fact I have swept her off to the potty as soon as she opens her eyeballs and I sit on top of her.. Ok not on TOP but beside her until she goes.. constantly saying Go Potty.. I sound like a loon but at least she is peeing where she is SUPPOSED to. and she has already learned that if I give her "The Look" she needs to back up and stay in the potty spot.

It has a completely different name

Binky Too she looks soooo much like Binky Boo that it was not possible to not name her that. The problem I am facing right this minute is I have NO CLUE what to do with such a small baby! It cries all night I have had no sleep in two nights and it doesn't warn you it is going to pee.. it JUST DOES! Do they make diapers for puppies??? it needs one

WE COME HOME TODAY!!!

Today is a very exciting day!!!

I bring my baby home and so does my bff! Ok Ok so she did go through roughly 11 hours of labor to have her baby and I had to wait a grueling 3 weeks to pick mine up. Her labor may have been harder but MINE was definately been LONGER!

I PROMISE update and pics later today when we get home! I mean I have to show you all the cool things I bought her right???

Ok I am going to tell you how pathetically cheap.. no that isn't it.. immature.. no that isn't it... snobbish... NO that isn't it.. WAIT I GOT IT.. you know how some people call themselves shoe snobs, or yarn snobs, or bag snobs.. cause they only get the very very best?

I am NOT a hotel snob! Don't get me wrong I love a good hotel as much as the other person the nice fluffy bed.. the wonderful pillows the nice lounge, but I just can't sleep while I am there! I have been gone from home for a week.. a whole week in which each day I became more and more tired due to less and less sleep! Last night.. I stopped in my travel to get the baby in a side of the road Super 8 Motel that cost all of $50 a small fraction of the cost of my normal homes away from homes and I slept like a baby! They even gave me.. as in FREE.. FOR NOTHING .. I HANDED OVER NO EXTRA MONEY for a wonderful bowl of FROOT LOOPS this morning!!!! Can you ask for more than that???

SMOOCH AND ONE LHK to the one who gets the importance of a good bowl of FROOT LOOPS!

well... we are at least getting somewhere

After the sister persons nice comment about Pinky that is OUT ... OUT I TELL YOU OUT!

So we are looking at Tippy..

a newer picture

The days are getting close now! I am getting more nervous more excited more restless.

One of my best friends is pregnant.. due any day. (I am secretly hoping that Friday is her day) Wouldn't that be fun!

Oh and the waterman is leaning towards Pinky.. I am not all that thrilled about that one, but it is his job.

What's in a Name??

A LOT!

Ok for those of you wondering... THIS..



does not have a name. It will not have a name until next Friday when I bring her home and the waterman looks at her. He is the namer around these parts. So in the mean time THIS is being called Julibinkhead. Which is very similar to the new Verizon commercials where people need phones that work in Carivirgizona. Ohhh that could be it's name Calivergizona... Zoni for short. That would look neat on her papers!

Seriously I just call her meat mouth. That is potted meat all over her lips :)

SMOOCH

The new Baby.. and a big Thank you

First the thank you to Monkling!!! I have lovely hand made soap all because I said Laura! How cool is that??
Oh and by the way I am scared to us it.. so it is sitting there looking PRETTY. extra smooch to you.

Kim.. I am alive and well.. scratch that.. I am alive.. for checking on me.. extra smooch.

For the rest you.. well just blah. That is just about all i have to say. I am tired and just don't feel like doing ANYTHING today.

But I will leave you with some pictures! So Smooch to you..

And the Pick is..

I haven't decided yet.

That was mean wasn't it. I am leaning towards the baby with the little white racing stripe on her head. She is cute. She reminds me of the one I loved before. But there is a size component as well. I won't see the true sizes until next week. Monday to be exact.

I am a little down today. Ok a lot down. So this is going to be short.

I wish I could take them both, heck I wish I could take all three but my husband would never let me spend over a grand on dogs.

smooch

Wanna play guess which baby??

After you decide which one we are leaning towards.. tell me if you think she is a boy or a girl.. just curious what you think they look like.

I know I haven't been around.. Sorry. Just going through .. stuff.

Enjoy the guessing.. and let me just tell you that things aren't always as they seem.

smooch

How is this for happy!!!

I came home tonight to my husband telling me that we are having a baby! And that was final.
Granted my baby will have four legs.

Don't get me wrong in no way does that take away my hurt of losing my Binky Boo but it does give me hope.

Not only are we having a baby we are getting Binky's sister. Same parents.

I thought this would make you all smile a little.

Tragedy

I know I have been missing in action for that I am sorry. I haven't had the heart to blog ... honestly I do not know how to put into words what is going on in my world. So I am going to do the best I can and please forgive me if it is too graphic or offensive.

We lost our little angel "Binky Boo" this weekend. I would post you a picture but I can't do that without breaking into tears yet again. My eyes already look like they have gone 10 rounds with Ali, and I wouldn't think there could anymore tears left in me, but I continue to surprise myself by breaking out at any given time. Like right now.

I went to Busch Gardens with my kids Saturday and came home to Binky barely breathing and whimpering with every breath she tried to make. I had talked to the waterman on the way home and he had told me she jumped off the dock and he had to jump in and save her, but he didn't prepare me for what I was about to see. He was in denial, complete total denial. I can understand, and do not blame him in any way. It was a freak accident and no one's fault. I suppose I was a little more together than he was as he was the one with her and wanted her to be ok. I called my vet, who was closed and directed me to the on call dr. I call him, imagine my surprise to find a message "I am sorry we are at church for the evening, if you have an emergency call so and so." Well so and so was over an hour away, my mother tried other vets in our area but no one was available. I am sorry but if you are going to be on call for emergencies I am sure that your god wouldn't mind if you took and emergency call during a Saturday evening service to save someone's loved one. Apparently Dr AssWipe didn't agree with me.

I threw my youngest son in the car and had him hold Binky as I was driving like a mad woman, not to mention crying like one. We didnt' make it one mile from home before she stopped breathing and her eyes rolled back. I screamed and grabbed her, apparently that was enough to shock her back into breathing. I dropped my son off and picked up my daughter, I needed some one with me that could help me, Drake is a great kid, but with him screaming and crying as much as me just wasn't helping me at the moment. I needed someone with me that would keep talking to Binky.. keep her alert.

I had so much hope when I got to that doctors office. I just knew that Binky was going to be ok. They were going to fix her. They had too.. she was Binky! The doctor came out and asked me how long she had been in the water, I had no clue, they asked me if she had hit her head, I had no clue. I wasn't there. The most I could get out of the husband when I got home was that she was in the water on her side and he lost his boots. I still do not know for sure what happened to my Binky. I am sure I will never really know. Later in the night the waterman said she ran up on the dock and just never stopped and fell over, he dove in after her but she never tried to swim.

The vets gave her medicine to get the water out of her lungs but it just was too little too late. The lack of oxygen to her brain for hours had already caused damage. The first thing we noticed was that she couldn't see me, then her hearing went. It progressively got worse. For hours I sat with her begging her to fight to try for mama. And she did.. she tried so hard. She got her tempurature back up (after the vet had tried for about 2 hours with a heating blanket with very little luck) and her oxygen level went up as long as I talked to her but she didn't have enough strength left to keep fighting. Then peice by peice she just shut down.

I have never in my life gone through anything so traumatic. To hold her, Binky, and watch her slip away is more than my heart can even begin to bear. I have cried, I have screamed, I have wanted to just sit down and quit, I have worked, I have cleaned, I have washed clothes, I have tried to carry on as normal. I can't. I really can't. Every where I look I see her. She brought us so much joy and happiness and now there is this big hole and I just don't think we can fill it. The rift in this family is something I never imagined could happen but it has. I am sitting here alone, crying. I haven't been held and told it was going to be ok. I haven't been comforted. I know I am not the only one who lost her but is that really the point?

I came home in the wee hours Sunday morning and comforted my husband, and told him it would be ok, and it wasn't his fault and that I loved him, and I would be here for him. Is it too much to ask for that in return. He honestly hasn't talked to me all day. I can count on my hands the number of words he has said to me today. Maybe he doesn't know what to say, maybe he doesn't know how to say it, maybe .. I am so sick of maybe. All i know right now is I feel like I have lost every peice of happiness I had, the very thread that held me together. I have lost the thing I have looked all my life for.... unconditional love.

I love you Binky Boo.. I miss you.

A taste of fall!

Good Evening my lovely ladies!

I first have to say hi to a few people that have left comments that aren't my regular fans.

Hi there Lisa Carol and Katie!
Katie I know where you popped in from but Lisa Carol is a mind stumper since she asked me a question in my comments but I had no way but via my blog to respond. So Lisa Carol.. reveal yourself honey.. if you have a blog let us know! We love to blog hop to new places!

As for the rest of you.. SMOOCH!!!

Ok on to my real post. My sister person and I are both very strong advocates of fall. She tries to save Thanksgiving every year from being over taken by Christmas. I relish in Halloween myself.. are any of you surprised?? Either way fall is a favorite time of year for both of us. I think she always looks so radiant in the fall, I think it has to do with her tones, she is a very beautiful woman and it is something about the fall colors that just make her pop.

Another thing I just adore about fall, Pumpkin Spice Lattes at Starbucks! Oh not to mention the pumpkin cream cheese muffins they have. I can actually SEE my ass get bigger as I am walking out the store but dear god those things are to DIE for. The good thing is that the closest Starbucks to me is an hour away. However, there is a substitute, International Coffees has a Pumpkin Pie coffee cream in the diary section and I must say it runs a very close second. To me it is just the perfect thing on those brisk fall mornings or cool fall evenings. I made a cup tonight and walked out on the deck to enjoy the air and the pumpkin. I was in heaven.

The one bad thing about fall on the water is nothing changes. We don't have the beautiful color changes of the trees, we many have Pine Trees around these parts so leaves of fall color is not something I get to enjoy unless I take a trip west, which I never do by the way.

Oh and apparently my blog is boring.... no pictures.

I hate my camera, so I don't take many pictures anymore.

SMOOCHIES!!!